I write this journal not only to easy my pain, but as a dedication to my best friend and companion of the past ten years, Saintly.

Yesterday around 7pm my dog, a west highland white terrier, began to act very strange. We figured at first he had an upset stomach or constipation because of previous episodes like this before. But after trying several methods to ease his discomfort it was finally agreed upon to take him to the vet. However our normal vet was closed and were forced to take him to the animal hospital located behind my house. The drive there, though short, was very painful. Even though it was a short ride it felt like hours and within that time i felt a strange feeling wash over me. A feeling that this would be the last car ride i would ever have with Saintly. I was right.

Upon arriving at the hospital my family and I were informed that Saintly had a cancer known as hemangiosarcoma. According to the doctor, it was a cancer of the blood vessels which caused internal bleeding in the abdomen. Hearing this, my tears wouldn't stop. We were told that there was medical help for him, but he would need chemotherapy and at most could live only a few more months. As a family, we decided no matter how much we loved him nor how much we desperately wanted him to be with us longer, we couldn't make him live through pain and anguish like that. We decided against the surgery and took him home one last time. As a family we stayed with him all night and watched over and cared for him. Finally my brother and i couldn't stay away and went to sleep for a couple hours while my parents remained by his side.

At 3:12am this morning, he finally passed away. My best friend said goodbye to us and passed on to the next life free of pain and discomfort he may have been in. Even now i cannot stop my tears, my heart aches, and this house is very lonely. I know i will see him again when i too pass on, but until the i have my memories and pictures, videos and objects left over.

Saying goodbye is never easy, so i wont say goodbye. I will say until we meet again.

I love you Saintly, your family loves you, and we all miss you so much. I hope you're sweet spirit will still comfort us in times of need.

Until we meet again.